One - Thou shalt have no other god
I try to stay more firm that I can. Although
.
I have a feeling of nausea that I think I would go if I could put myself up there on his stomach, possibly almost sitting.
The little finger of his right hand is now completely asleep, maybe my head was blocking the movement of the arm.
But I am firm, steadfast, I also try to slow down the breath that you never know.
I try not to think that I spit acid is accumulating in the mouth, I know it is only a matter psychological, that if I can calm myself `fluke.
I try to close your eyes and concentrate on the muscles of the forehead by relaxing, and then get to the eye: if I can get to the chin without distracting me go to sleep '.
Pero `I might as well go into another room to smoke: get up with anxious gestures, to sit on the bed and pull my hair back with your hands, then holding them to the sides of the head and elbows to the legs in a gesture of resigned despair , then sigh and go into another room to smoke.
I never do, would be noticed.
Or I could go to the bathroom to cry.
Not here, there would be a little bit for granted and then not stand it if he put a hand to a caress, or any gesture of comfort.
In the bathroom, the bathroom is perfect.
Meanwhile I'm still firm, you do not think I want to draw your attention, or worse, I'm trying to take a conciliatory attitude towards him.
It is this silence that kills me, makes me feel weak, I want to sell but not `feel so ignored.
It is best when we fight, at least I feel alive, important.
Cosi `and` as if I were not there and it makes me want to scream.
I could talk to him. Tell him that I do not know if I love him.
Just to hear my voice and establish a contact that is not a surrender.
Part of me knows that whatever I do now can not get worse the situation, but I do not know what I'll be able to `stand still, without giving voice to rebellion inside me.
I could get up, So, without saying anything, get dressed and go to my house, but if you do not try to stop me?
are the 2, I do not want to drive around the city alone at this time.
I could also turn around and hug him, I know I put everything in place.
He hates this situation as me, but the time when we were first asked to tender apology for who is the past.
now is too important to keep the positions, train the other to restore the bone, as when you breed a dog. This is
become our history a little dog that makes us friends, to take out twice a day a little bit miffed, to be educated so that they do little damage and break the balls as possible.
Now I tell you: what are we doing still together?
Before we had a lot of common interests, not stand to be separated, there was never enough time together 'because we always had a lot of things to do and say.
Now none of this, only sadness is holding us together to bring the dog to the kennel.
Now I can tell.
No, not now, when he is tired and unreason becomes acidic.
Tomorrow, maybe not in the morning that does not connect, maybe at lunch, or tomorrow night, I ask him if we meet for dinner here. Tomorrow night we see
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